My husband and I
Knew that we could delay no longer,
Discussing and deciding
Upon an important issue affecting us.
(What the issue was, is not important.
The journey, and the vision thereof is.)
So we both came into our bedroom
And shut the door behind us,
So we could discuss the matter privately.
I laid down in our bed,
And he sat down in his chair.
Moments of silence enveloped us,
As we tried to figure out what to say.
It was then that I seen,
a darker shadow
form behind my husband,
and like an ugly gargoyle,
with a beak or a stinger of some kind upon its face,
it arose and perched on the back upper corner
of my husbands chair.
I heard just a hint of speech,
Like a whisper,
As I watched it bend its stinger forward
And say something into my husbands left ear.
The words that came then,
From out of my husbands mouth,
(spoken to me, on the controversial topic,)
Were attacking, condemning, accusing, bitter,
And full of scorn for me and my views.
I lay there on our bed,
Waiting for the usual response to such accusations,
(anger, hurt, despair, self-righteousness, shock, to name but a few,)
But they weren’t there.
It was as if my emotions
At least for that moment,
Were somehow separate from me.
Suddenly, right at the foot of our bed,
I caught a movement of something darker than the night.
It moved towards me,
And I watched its bulbous egg-shaped head
Bounce up and down
As its body followed suit.
It looked like a balrog,
One of ‘Durin’s Bane’ fame,
But darker and smaller,
Though still much taller than I,
For its head would brush into
our bedroom ceiling above it,
when it moved.
It pulled out something from its hands,
A long tube or sword of some kind,
I heard a soft ‘pop’ and then a hissing sound,
As if a blowtorch had just been lit,
And watched as the demon
Brought it up to its face,
And breathed over it.
A wave of scourging fire
Lashed out and flared over me,
Its flames crackling and glowing golden red
then almost instantly turning
into a crisp blanket of black coals,
which still smoldered and crackled like lava.
I expected to feel the pain of fire hit my body somehow,
But I did not.
I was beginning to feel relieved,
Thinking the demon had failed in its task,
(for I felt no burning sensation anywhere on my skin,)
Until the demon let out another breath of fire over me,
Same as the first,
And as it rolled over me,
I felt a great filling up within me,
Of INTENSE ANGER.
NOW I felt something!
The words that my husband had just spoken to me moments before
Came back up to play over and over again in my mind,
And the burning anger roiling up
from somewhere deep within me
suddenly DEMANDED to be released.
I KNEW I should not speak,
I KNEW it would only serve satan,
BUT I COULD NOT STOP MYSELF!
Like a pressure cooker about to blow,
My mouth opened
And the words that came out
Were attacking and self-righteous,
Coming to my defense over the issue,
With all that intense anger propelling it forward.
After the initial release of anger,
I had hoped that the pressure had lessened,
But it had not.
I looked over towards my husband,
Seen the other demon whisper again in his ear,
Before hearing more arguing words
Coming from his lips.
I knew then, without a doubt,
That the words he was speaking were not his own,
But was being put into his mind by the demon,
And simply parroted out by him
In an effort to attack (and hurt) me.
DESPITE KNOWING THIS,
I still could not stop myself from responding to the stab!
The demons at this point,
Must have figured that their work for the most part was done,
For I seen that they now sat back and watched us argue with each other,
With evil laughter and sneers settling upon their faces.
More hurtful words still bubbled out from me,
Until I somehow managed to pause,
(to this day, I still do not know HOW,)
And blurt out “THIS IS SATAN ATTACKING US!”
My husband continued on in his argument,
So I interrupted him, saying “we shouldn’t talk right now;
THIS SERVES SATAN!”
My husband flung a few more hurtful words at me,
Before he got up and left the room.
After he exited, I had to physically hold my mouth shut with my hands,
Just to keep myself from calling him back in so we could argue some more!
As I heard him go outside on our porch,
I then let go of my jaw
And managed to get out just one word of my own:
At that, the haze of heated anger
Seemed to release me for a moment,
And I was able to think more clearly.
I knew what I had to do.
I had to cast out these demons
From the BOTH of us,
Regardless of who’s right or wrong!
This was HARD to do,
For that burning anger was still well lit within me!
All I could get out,
Was the scriptures that usually came to mind:
“I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord,
Plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
To give you a hope and a future!
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And lean not onto your own understanding
In all your ways acknowledge Him
And He will direct your paths…”
The grip of anger had lessened more from me,
So I now turned to address the demons directly.
(At this point, I could no longer see them,
But I knew they were still there.)
“Demons of anger, self-righteousness,
Condemnation, bitterness, and despair,
And any other demons troubling me or my husband,
I BIND YOU UP IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST,
I LOOSEN YOU FROM US,
AND I CAST YOU OUT IN THE MOST PERFECT AND HOLY NAME
OF JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH!
MY LORD GOD JESUS WILL DECIDE WHERE YOU WILL GO!
I FORBID ANY EVIL REPLACING SPIRITS TO TAKE YOUR PLACE!
I sensed then,
That they had been removed,
For the anger that had been infused in me
Was now slowly draining away.
But the painful words
That my husband had said to me
Still lingered in my mind.
So I got down on my prayer stool,
And cried out to Jesus to take away
All their poison away from both my husband and I.
Then I asked Him, to send His Holy angels down from heaven,
To keep watch over us and protect us from satan’s attacks,
And to fight our battles in the unseen world.
Peace began to enter into me,
And even my body relaxed in response.
My husband then came back in to our bedroom,
And when I seen the sad look on his face,
I got up and went into his arms and we embraced each other.
After saying our sorry’s to each other,
And together asking our Lord in prayer
to be with us and guide us
It took about ten to fifteen minutes
To work through the actual problem.
PRAISE BE TO JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH!!!
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“Nevertheless, though we walk in the flesh, yet we do not war after the flesh. (For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God, to cast down holds.) Casting down the imaginations, and every high thing that is exalted against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obediance of Christ.” (2 Corinthians 10:3-5, 1599 Geneva Bible)