Trying To Reach Heaven

A Dream…  (Journal entry recorded in my Bible, from 1995)

I am trying to reach heaven, but the pathway, the gate, is too narrow. I could not get through. I thought I’d be o.k., but I was not.

As I stood there at the gate, I seen many, many babies.

There were those that were full of joy and life, kicking, cooing, gurgling, with their energy giving off a form of light that seemed to glow from within them.

But many of the babies had wasted away and died. Their forms were still and lifeless, their skin held a dull almost grey color to it, and their eyes were empty, starring off into nothing. You could guess as to how long they had been dead, by the amount of decay that had already taken place in their bodies. There was no light whatsoever coming from them any more.

Some were still in different stages of dying. I could see the ones that were undecided; they looked as if they were dead, but there was hope that shone out from around them. Some were crying out for help, their cries piercing my heart from their shrill intensity of need. I longed to reach out to hold them and help them, but I knew I could not, for I sensed they were in a different dimension from mine.   

I cried and cried for them, as I watched them float by. I asked not to be one of those that did not make it. I thought of my children, and cried more. I begged God not to have me or my family be amongst those that did not make it. I asked Him how not to be one of them. I asked Him how I could get through the narrow pathway.

I then sensed that each person was different; they had to give up of themselves, their greatest thing they loved, in order to steer through it. You needed the help of those who had gone before you. Without them you lost your knowledge of how to get through the pathway to heaven, and you could no longer see the forces of darkness in your way. These people looked and sounded normal, but when you were on the right path, you seen through them, and this bothers them, so they nag and attack you to pull you off the path. Once you are off this path, you must submit to the darkness.

I seen my littlest child look to me in her innocence, and she did not see the distinction between the two realities/dimensions. To her, (for her,) they were one, and the dark forces could not touch her. But SOON she looked to me, watched me, my facial expressions, to see if she should feel fear or panic, and in this way lost her natural born ability to “follow the path.” I tried to be like her, but could not be.

I then woke up from the dream.

What is the greatest thing I loved in this world? My free time; my alone time. Time, when I can do what I want, and feed my will as I wish. My job has stopped a large portion of this time, yet the remaining time left is needed, the lord is asking for it, and in my sin, I’m hedging against it. I pray the Lord will give me His heart, to want to seek His Will, instead of mine…


Note: I believe that ‘those that had gone before’, were those people from the Bible, and the believers that have carried the faith upon the earth from generation to generation. The ‘natural born ability to “follow the path”‘, refers to the innocence that is within each newborn child. (They are too young to understand evil, or recognize it for what it is at that age.) 


Matthew 7:13-14, 21, 7-8 KJV

Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat:
Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.
Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven.
Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:
For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.


3 comments on “Trying To Reach Heaven

  1. we can search the term/idea of little ones, children or child of God and also matt 18:3 and see also the children are adults, some from natural state with hope but not His, some having had knowledge of God yet having/falling away, losing the light and life of Christ, unwilling to give up themselves, deny themselves daily and pick up their cross and follow Him. Some joyous!..bubbling with life in Christ entered in..? didn’t say but would have to have had. Your child in the dream looked off the path..the path the Way, Christ, and focused on you, for direction, guidance and what to learn/know/understand but seemed untouchable by the bad ones before…? looked at you before in her innocence..but you noted she SOON looked and watched to see what she should if something changed in her focus/way/walk. Anyway it’s a strong dream, has many current and real time things in it that are occurring in many’s life. I had the sense that it’s also about those who had come to some walk with Christ who are falling away. sad dream also, For love of this present world and life and flesh many are walking away from Christ.

    I hear you on being called further and deeper into our walk of faith and following Him, giving up more of our own, seeking not anymore our own, as mentioned in the great verses on what love is. we are told and wish too love the Lord with all our whole being and can do it. It is hard sometimes, my fleshly old man yells to do something else..anything else. each time I hear that old man yell I have a choice to make, and we can increase in strength, and self discipline, in Christ, as well as increase faith and love and power and walking in the Spirit. Doing 1st that one thing, loving the Lord with everything, sometimes it’s all the only thing to focus on and pick up the Word and eat the Bread of Life daily, abiding in Him and His Word abiding in us and doing it.

    anyway strong dream, I’m praying for you and your family and all strength in the Lord and much guidance and blessings and joy and comfort by the Spirit. He will complete the great work He has begun in us, and of all the Father has given Him, He loses not a one!

    • Dearest Bread,

      Our family can feel your prayers, and are VERY thankful for them!! Several times, the Lord has let me know during my prayer time, that YOUR PRAYERS were used to defeat the evil one, especially in my children’s lives! I value your prayers highly, for you are one upon whom the Holy Spirit obviously gives ear to! As this time of the year is amongst the busiest time of the year for me, I haven’t had much time to spend in emails. But when things calm down more, I hope to let you know more about the answered prayers that has been happening in our lives.

      At the time I had this dream, I was one of those Christians who thought of God for one hour on Sunday morning, but otherwise kind of kept Him out of my regular everyday living. I had thought I’d be o.k. cause I hadn’t done any of the big well-known sins, or if I had gotten close to one, I had already repented of it and had completely turned away from it. But this dream made me realize that there was so very much more to knowing Him, and soon after this, that my definition of ‘sin’ ended up getting a major overhaul as well.

      Thanks for taking the time to comment; your insights into the dreams are always interesting to read!

      C. Dunamis

  2. Hi Dunamis! Yeah it’s busy’s all that sun..makes a person go out and get about..
    ..I’ve already mentioned to a few after they complained about the heat..don’t worry soon enough we’ll be moaning about all the rain and cold lol.

    anyway I’m glad your all doing well, it’s good news, yeah when you have time email and update me about things ..done, doing, and God willing will do..:))

    yeah some stress church, and never gather with the Lord daily..the Word is Spirit and is life, Word come in the flesh in Christ, bread of life. Others (I’m one) aren’t very churched, but always in the bible, stress the bible and gather with the Lord over church. I can get out of balance, not good to be alone and told not to forsake fellowship, so found a good church and stay in the daily gathering with the Lord in the word.

    sometimes it’s good to return to the 1st the Lord with all our hearts minds souls strength and others as self. How can I say..I love the Lord, and never spend time with Him but one day a week? lol..if I was married my wife would be very unhappy huh lol. we spend time with the things we love.

    Keep abiding in Him and His word abiding in us and I pray for your all’s fulness of fellowship with the Lord. fullness of fellowship is something I’ve been thinking about lately aswell as the verse, He’s given us all we need pertaining to life and godliness in Christ Jesus…already given it to us!..we must fetch more lol. it’s a race! LOL!

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