Reliving Old Grief

 

I dreamed of my mother again,
And of my grandmother.

I was back in my old childhood house, living out of a suitcase,
And having to face my mother’s death again.

My uncle was also there with me;
I sensed that he had been sent there to help me recover from my mother’s death, and was praying for me.

I kept wandering around the house looking for something familiar,
Something of comfort, but could find nothing.

I kept a blanket around me (I was only in my undergarments
Underneath,) and thought to get dressed, but even the clothes in my suitcase
Were unfamiliar.

I seen the odd collections of ceramics and plates that were still unfinished, (she liked to make them,) but they were things I had not seen before.

I sensed it was time to give them away.

I kept crying, the grief overwhelming me
Consuming from the inside out.

I tried to go through the closet to the other side of the house
Like I used to when I was young, but it had long been blocked off.

“I miss you so much mother!” I exclaimed to the closet wall.
“And I miss you too, grandma & grandpa!”

“But I miss my mama most of all!”

No matter how hard I tried,
I just kept crying.

I then woke up.

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When I awoke,
I kept hearing the tune of a song, (a top 40 song,) that keeps repeating itself:
“I keep bleeding…Keep keep bleeding…love…I get cut up inside…”

I looked up the date of when my mother died.

Several years ago this Thursday.

Figures.
Maybe that’s why I dreamed of her again.

“That,” I felt God reply,
“and the tulips that are sitting on top of your kitchen counter,
Constantly reminding you of your grandmother.
They help too.”

I thought of my mother and how she lived in the same house as her parents,
And wondered how she coped with all the memories of her parents
Constantly surrounding her.

My heart remained heavy though,
As I relived the grief from my mother’s death.

“This is an attack from satan, Ma Petite,” my God replied.

“A dream of my mother?” I was a little confused of this.
“What’s wrong with having a dream of my mom?”

“This dream, brought you grief, pain, and loneliness, all over again.
Which kingdom is better served, bringing you that?”

True; it was hard to continue on with life when you’re struck down again with that ‘death grief’. Yes, reliving old grief definitely was an attack from satan….

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Matthew 6:34 KJV “Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.”

Psalm 23:1-6 (KJV) “The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.”

John 14:27 (KJV) “Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”

 

What Ebola Really Is

In the middle of the night, my Lord woke me up.

“Ma Petite! Ma Petite!” He whispered to me with urgency. Over and over He whispered my name, until I began to wake up. He was quite persistent, and very, very patient. It took several minutes for me to wake me up, for I was in a deep sleep. But finally I was awake enough to respond to Him.

“Yes, Lord?” I mumbled. “What is it?”

I sensed Him overlooking all the earth. “Ebola! EBOLA! Oh Ma Petite,” He says, with great sorrow in His voice, “My children FEAR Ebola, and this is not My Will for them!”

“Oh?” I said, rubbing the last bit of sleep from my eyes.

Then I felt Him turn directly to me.

“What about you, Ma Petite? Do YOU fear Ebola?”

I thought about it for a moment before answering. “No.”

“Why not?” the Lord asked me. He was quite insistent in hearing my answer.

I thought for a moment, before answering. I was wide awake now. “Because I know what Ebola really is.”

I sensed the Lord nod in agreement, pleased with my answer, before turning back to the earth.

“Tell My children, Ma Petite. Tell them what Ebola really is. They need to know too, Ma Petite, so they do not live in fear of it anymore.”

“Tell them what Ebola really is!”

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That very morning, I began to think about what I would say in this post.

Then satan, (that weaseling snake,) came and whispered in my ear.

“But this virus is DIFFERENT than all the other viruses you’ve dealt with. This one is MAN MADE! You can’t fight off this one like you have all the others. The other ones were natural. They were easier to fight off. This one is DIFFERENT!”

Sadly, I listened to his poisoned words, and began to ponder upon them.

Then, a little while later, doubt entered in.

I began to research Ebola, to try to discover more about this virus. Sure enough, there were those who claimed it was indeed, man made.

For a whole week, it stopped me from writing, as I dug deeper into all the information that is out there on the virus.

As I dug deeper, FEAR entered in to me as well. I myself began to fear the virus. If it was indeed different, then how would I be able to fight it off? It got so bad that I became immobilized from the fear. I could do little else, than just sit there in front of my computer, in the fear.

Then I couldn’t take it anymore, and turned back to God in prayer. I told Him how sad I was, that instead of doing what He had asked of me, that I too, was now hit with that same fear that the Lord said His children, my brothers and sisters in Christ, were suffering from. I asked Him to forgive me, and to help me to SEE the answer that I knew must be there somewhere. I figured that God wouldn’t ask me to do something that I could not do. Somewhere, someway, God would make the way.

He didn’t respond to my questions immediately. Instead, He told me to go out with my husband for dinner, (a real treat for us,) and to talk to him about it.

So we went out, and I told my husband while we were at dinner, about the message I had received from God, and then about the doubt that had crept in.

Now, those of you who have been following this blog for a while now, can guess as to what I believe viruses really are.

They are DEMONS, nothing more, nothing less.

Yet the whole man made part really threw me, for if man made it, then there would be no demons in it, for as far as I know, man can not make demons.

But then my beloved husband asks me, “What if the demons for this ‘Ebola’ had been created long ago, and have simply been tucked away waiting for their time upon the earth?”

Wow, relief! I agreed with him. I could see this happening easily, for even in Revelation, it speaks of demons being held back until their appointed time. So why not ones for Ebola?

Then after dinner, the Lord told me to share what I was going through with one of my kids.

When I did, it was pointed out to me, (by the kid who can see so easily into the unseen world,) that many evil things have been created by man before, and those things usually have some really bad demons attached to them. When man makes something that is meant for evil, it is a sin. And wherever sin is, there are demons.

Then the Lord told me to spend some time reading from one of my favorite books on healing, called “His Healing Power”, by Lilian B. Yeomans, M. D. (ISBN-13: 978-1-57794-819-3, and ISBN-10: 1-57794-819-X.) This book has always been a TREMENDOUS help in boosting up my belief that one could be healed. The author was an MD, a licensed physician, and she gave up her practice, because she found that she had far better results with just the Word of God alone. The Lord saved her out of the claws of addiction, (an addiction to morphine,) after being told by other doctors that she was a hopeless case and had just a few months to live. She lived far longer, and brought healing to many through her testimonies. She has seen MANY DEADLY DISEASES CURED by the Holy Spirit. It is a book I HIGHLY recommend getting for your library!
Well, anyways, after reading her book again, the last of my doubts were removed, and then I was able to go ahead and write this post.

I share this struggle with you, to show how devious satan can be, and how he attacks those who are trying to do God’s Will.

Now that I look back upon it, it seems so silly, to doubt God just because the virus might be man made. I am actually ashamed to admit that something that silly stopped me. But that is how satan works. He distorts one’s vision with his doubts, so you can not see the truth.

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One thing that really interested me during my research into Ebola, was that some of the people who wore the containment suits, still came down with Ebola. And some of the comments placed about this sounded so bewildered; they even pointed out that the workers must have been very careful in the use of their suits, for they knew it was a matter of life and death. Yet they still became sick from Ebola. Of course they were saying this, thinking of how severely contagious it must be. Yet when I first read this, I almost shouted out loud “demon!”, so clear was the revelation from this example. After all, a containment suit is no protection from a demon. Spirits would go right through it!

Then all the demon would have had to do, is place its lying symptoms of say, fever, headache, and muscle aches for example, on to the person, and then if the person believed those lies, The symptoms would become his, and the disease could then enter in and do its damage to the person.

Yes, I can just imagine all those who may read this and think “Wow is she foolish!”(1 Corinthians 1:18,) yet I am here to testify, that I DO NOT GET SICK FROM VIRUSES ANYMORE.

And for me, this is quite the blessing and a miracle besides!

For those of you who do not know this, many years ago, a group of doctors proclaimed that I had only a few months to live. They had given up on me, and told me that I had maybe three to four months left to live, six at the most. Yet thankfully the Lord had other ideas for me. (Thank You Jesus Christ of Nazareth!)

At first, (after being sent home to die,) I got into all the herbs and vitamins that one could take for my illnesses, and soon satan had me convinced that I had to take all these vitamins and herbs, or I would get sick again. If I missed one, I got sick. I’d still get sick even if I didn’t realize that I had missed one, until many days later. I was taking over sixty pills a day just to stay healthy! Much of our money was wasted on this stuff. Thousands upon thousands of dollars was spent on it, year after year. I came into bondage to those vitamins and herbs. I lived in fear of when the powers that be would simply declare them illegal and then cut off my supply. I figured that then I would die.

Then one day the many vitamins and herbs I took couldn’t stop another ‘incurable’ disease from attacking me.

I kept praying and asking the Lord to come save me. In return, the Lord kept asking me to give up all the herbs and vitamins that I was taking.

It was during this time, that I learned that sicknesses, especially viruses, were caused by demons. And the Lord was teaching me all about casting them out in His Name, and in claiming good health also in His perfect name.

So, I claimed that I could go off all those vitamins and herbs, and still not get more sick.

And then I did. I went off of them, and I found that I was not just free from having to swallow all those pills, but I was free from that so-called ‘incurable’ diseases, too! Hallelujah!

Now I will say, that there are times when the Lord will tell me, to eat a certain fruit, or take a few vitamins or herbs, but it is in no way even close to what I had been doing before. Just a few here and there, and then just for a day or two. There are months that can go by, without the Lord telling me to take anything.

And yet the viruses do not get me.

Oh they have tried. But now THEY LOOSE EVERY SINGLE TIME.

It usually starts out, with a swollen gland, or slight sore throat. And then I hear a demon from the pit of hell, whispering in my ear, “Your throat is starting to hurt, and your glands are starting to swell up. Your getting sick…”

And then I stop whatever it was that I was doing, to address the evil imp right away. (Waiting only gives satan time to push more lying symptoms onto me, in the hopes that I will accept them as my own by default.) I say right out loud, (it must be out loud, for satan can not read ones mind,) “You’re a liar satan! I don’t believe you at all! These symptoms are LIES! They are NOT MINE! They belong to YOU! THEY ARE YOURS! Take your lying symptoms and get out! Go where my Lord God will have you go! I forbid any of your replacing spirits to take your place! Get out and trouble me no more!”

Next, I pull out some scriptures and read it out loud. Sometimes Psalm 91, other times I will say some of my other favorite scriptures, like: “I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a hope and a future.”, and “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths.” (Jeremiah 29:11, Proverbs 3:5-6.) Singing praises to Him also helps; if I can not remember any praise songs to Him at that moment, I will sing a joyous song in tongues, knowing that the Lord will interpret what is in my heart.

Then I claim, out loud, that all lying symptoms will be gone within the hour or less, in the name of Jesus. (Sometimes I have claimed that the lying symptoms are gone already, while other times the Lord has had me claim that they will be gone by morning light, but this is usually when I have let it go for too long, before trying to fight it off.) I say out loud” “FOR IF YOU LIVE IN ME, AND MY WORD LIVES IN YOU, YOU MAY ASK ME FOR ANYTHING IN MY NAME, AND YOU WILL RECEIVE IT, IN ORDER TO GIVE GLORY TO THE FATHER, AND IN ORDER THAT YOUR JOY WOULD BE FULL.” (John 15:7, John 14:13-14, and John 16:23-24.)

Then I covered myself (verbally) with the blood of Jesus, (Revelation 12:11 & 1:5, Romans 5:9, 1 John 1:7-9) and then asked the Lord to send His angels down to watch over me and protect me from satan’s attacks. (Psalm 34:7.)

Every time my body is prompted with more symptoms, (or more of the same ones,) I repeat this process and call him a liar all over again. Sometimes I have felt the prompting of the Holy Spirit to get another believer to anoint me with the blessed olive oil, (a symbol of the Holy Spirit,) and ask for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit to help the process along. (James 5:14-16, Mark 6:13, Luke 10:34, Psalms 23:5.) This has been especially helpful in fighting off headaches and migraines. Sometimes the moment the oil touches my temple, the pain IMMEDIATELY leaves. Other times, it takes a short while for the pain to go. Demons hate blessed olive oil! (To bless the oil to be used for anointing oil is to proclaim it to be blessed in the name of Jesus. I suggest holding up the bottle and saying “Jesus, please bless this oil in Your name, and fill it with Your Holy Spirit. It is now set aside as blessing oil, and is to be used as a symbol of Your Holy Spirit’s indwelling.”) Note: Do NOT use the old testament oil, a special mixture of herbs and oil, for your blessing. This often carries the spirit of priest-craft in it. (Exodus 30:31 – 30:33.) Just use plain olive oil. (Some success has been seen using just regular vegetable oil, and in one case, motor oil, if there is nothing else available.) Do note however, healing happens most of the time without any oil, so if you are too poor to buy some, HAVE NO FEAR, the Lord will know this, and still keep you well without it!

The first time I tried all this, I actually fell asleep fighting off satan. He kept at me so diligently, that I resorted to speaking out loud small scriptures, just so I wouldn’t have to listen to him taunt and pester me anymore. I kept saying over an over again: “No evil dis-ease shall cleave to my body, in the name of my Lord Jesus Christ!”, and “By His stripes I am healed!” and “He heals me from ALL my disease!” (I get these sayings from Psalm 103:3, and Isaiah 53:5,) till I fell asleep. In the morning, all the lying symptoms were GONE.

For the most part, the sicknesses stopped. (Not the attacks, just the sicknesses.) Then I realized that I was still getting sick about twice a year. No matter how hard I fought off satan’s lying symptoms, I’d still end up sick. Bewildered, I went to the Lord and asked Him why I still fell sick at those times. (I knew it must be something I had done, for God was perfect and I was not.) The Lord then reminded me that I had told others that I now only get sick about twice a year. So here I was, verbally giving the jinx demon permission to win control over me twice a year! After verbally taking back those words, and telling the jinx demon to cross those words off of his list of self-imposed curses, the sicknesses stopped. I HAVEN’T BEEN SICK SINCE!

Satan will try to hit you with doubt; expect it and be ready for it. He does not like to give up his control over you easily. He wants you to continue to believe his lies. He likes to see you sick and miserable and too weak to do anything for the kingdom of God.

Satan has even used other believers to attack me with doubt. I have had those who claim that only SOME of the sicknesses are from demons; the rest are ‘real’ and ‘natural’, and they must be treated with herbs and even medicines.

But then satan would always try to get me to wonder, which sicknesses were from satan, and which ones were not. (And of course, the one I’d be currently trying to fight off, would always be the one that satan claimed could not be fought off with the Word of God and faith alone.)

Finally, I realized that this was a doctrine from demons, and not from God. There are many scriptures that claim that Jesus wants His children to have health, healing, and wholeness. My favorite one says that He came to give life and that you might have it more abundantly, and that it was satan that comes to steal, kill, and destroy. (John 10:10.)

Another doctrine of demons to be aware of, is the use of Paul’s thorn to defend sickness. (2 Cor. 12:7-10.) But if you read the passage carefully, you will find that Paul’s thorn was actually a messenger, an evil fallen angel, sent by satan to continually hit Paul with persecutions, because he was serving the Lord so faithfully. That thorn had nothing to do with an ‘incurable’ sickness! For an eye-opening teaching on this, please see: http://www.awmi.net/extra/article/pauls_thorn .

So, what will you now do, after reading this testimony? Will you live in fear of Ebola? If you do, you have just given the Jinx demon an opening for the Ebola virus (or any other virus for that matter,) to attack you. God’s people are not to live in fear of such things. It is not His Will for you to suffer like that!

If you start having symptoms of sickness, what will you do? Will you fight it off as if it is a real attack from an enemy that is hovering right next to you? Will you tell it forcefully, and with deep belief, that it is nothing but a liar, and that those symptoms the devil has been putting on you are nothing but satan’s lies? (Ephesians 2:6.) Will you have some scriptures ready, to use to fight it off?

Yes, you can prepare to fight off Ebola, or any other virus. And if you are reading this post, then you have access to a computer, which means you have access to the Word of God, and this means you already have everything you have to have to fight these demons off!

Now if you hear the Lord tell you to store up some Nano Silver 10 PPM or simple colloidal silver, or other immune boosting herbs and vitamins, (or whatever,) then do so. Like Mary, the mother of Jesus said in John 2:5, “Do whatever he tells you.” Sometimes the Lord will use what is at your disposal, (or at His,) to bring forth His miracle, just like bathing in the Jordan river, or rubbing mud on the eyes. (2 Kings 5:10, John 9:6.) Just know, that IT IS POSSIBLE to be healed without any of them! (Matthew 8:5-17, Matthew 9:35, Mark 5:34, Luke 8:43-56.)

To all of God’s children: May you continue to fight the good fight! May the Lord bless you and keep you, and may His face shine down upon you and give you HIS PEACE!

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I thought about putting a bunch of scriptures here on healing, (there are many,) but the Lord wanted me to focus on finding scriptures on fear instead. (There is even more on fear than there is on healing!) I have listed only my favorites. (Most of these quotes are KJV. ) What I found was interesting…

Revelation 21:6-8 “And he said unto me, It is done. I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. I will give unto him that is athirst of the fountain of the water of life freely. He that overcometh shall inherit all things; and I will be his God, and he shall be my son. BUT THE FEARFUL, AND UNBELIEVING, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.”

1 John 4:18 “There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.”

Judges 6:23 “And the Lord said unto him, Peace be unto thee; fear not: thou shalt not die.”

1 Samuel 12:24  “Only fear the Lord, and serve him in truth with all your heart: for consider how great things he hath done for you.”

2 Kings 6:16  “And he answered, Fear not: for they that be with us are more than they that be with them.”

2 Kings 17:39  “But the Lord your God ye shall fear; and he shall deliver you out of the hand of ALL your enemies.”

Psalm 23:4  “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.”

Psalm 27:1  “The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?”

Psalm 27:3  “Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.”

Psalm 34:4  “I sought the Lord, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.”

Psalm 34:7  “The angel of the Lord encampeth round about them that fear him, and delivereth them.”

Psalm 64:1  “Hear my voice, O God, in my prayer: preserve my life from fear of the enemy.”

Psalm 118:6  “The Lord is on my side; I will not fear: what can man do unto me?”

Psalm 145:19  “He will fulfill the desire of them that fear him: he also will hear their cry, and will save them.”

Proverbs 1:33  “But whoso hearkeneth unto me shall dwell safely, and shall be quiet from fear of evil.”

Proverbs 3:25  “Be not afraid of sudden fear, neither of the desolation of the wicked, when it cometh.”

Proverbs 10:24  “The fear of the wicked, it shall come upon him: but the desire of the righteous shall be granted.”

Proverbs 29:25  “The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in the Lord shall be safe.”

Isaiah 35:4  “Say to them that are of a fearful heart, Be strong, fear not: behold, your God will come with vengeance, even God with a recompence; he will come and save you.”

Isaiah 41:10  “Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.”

Isaiah 41:13  “For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.”

Isaiah 59:19  “…When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord shall lift up a standard against him.”

Malachi 4:2 “But unto you that fear my name shall the Sun of righteousness arise with healing in his wings; and ye shall go forth, and grow up as calves of the stall.”

Mark 4:40  “And he said unto them, Why are ye so fearful? how is it that ye have no faith?”

Luke 8:50  “But when Jesus heard it, he answered him, saying, Fear not: believe only, and she shall be made whole.”

Luke 21:25-26  “And there shall be signs in the sun, and in the moon, and in the stars; and upon the earth distress of nations, with perplexity; the sea and the waves roaring; Men’s hearts failing them for fear, and for looking after those things which are coming on the earth: for the powers of heaven shall be shaken.”

Romans 8:15  “For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.”

2 Timothy 1:7  “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”

Hebrews 13:6  “So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.”

Mark 16:15-18  “And he said unto them, Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature.He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned.And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues;They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.”

“NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST YOU SHALL PROSPER, And every tongue which rises against you in judgment you shall condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, And their righteousness is from Me,” Says the Lord.” Isaiah 54:17

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For more information on demons and how they can affect one’s life, see also:

https://dreamsofdunamis.wordpress.com/2012/02/04/a-marked-difference/

https://dreamsofdunamis.wordpress.com/2012/10/27/waiting-expectantly/

https://dreamsofdunamis.wordpress.com/2013/04/25/spirit-guides/

https://dreamsofdunamis.wordpress.com/2013/03/07/students-beware-the-new-age-wellness-fair/

https://dreamsofdunamis.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/how-to-remove-demons-from-ourselves-and-others/

https://dreamsofdunamis.wordpress.com/2014/02/14/beware-of-the-jinx-demon/

https://dreamsofdunamis.wordpress.com/2013/10/01/how-to-remove-demonic-doorways-and-demons-from-your-home/

https://dreamsofdunamis.wordpress.com/2013/03/26/how-to-get-rid-of-land-demons-and-keep-them-out/

https://dreamsofdunamis.wordpress.com/2012/11/19/414/

https://dreamsofdunamis.wordpress.com/2012/06/17/being-freed-from-the-demon-of-depression/

https://dreamsofdunamis.wordpress.com/2012/05/26/battling-the-demon-at-gull-lake-lodge/

https://dreamsofdunamis.wordpress.com/2012/04/14/cast-it-out/

https://dreamsofdunamis.wordpress.com/2012/04/07/when-death-passed-over-me/

https://dreamsofdunamis.wordpress.com/2012/01/15/ask-me/

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Fight For Him On The Battlefield

A dream…

I am in a place that is reminiscent of a day care center, where you drop off your child for the day, and then pick them up after work. I am standing in the entrance way, with the check in booth to the left, and an inner foyer behind that. There is another doorway behind this to the right, where I sensed their charges were kept. This doorway did not have the usual door, but instead had a curtain of translucent multi-colored and multi-faceted beads to mark the entrance to that room.

The place is very dark and somber, despite the one good-sized window in the back. It was a place that I would normally not go to, for I knew that it was an unclean place. But I had been sent there, to deliver a message to the people. I had come to help set the captives free.

Just then, I seen a short robed figure come out of the back room. The beads barely wavered behind her, as she glided out smoothly and came to a stop before the entrance way. She took no human steps as such, but seemed to float  forward in one long smooth movement. The front of her gown parted in a small wave, revealing the luxurious deep purple velvet beneath it. Her hands looked to be holding on to her elbows beneath the robe, giving the front of her a perfectly square silhouette, as no hands or fingertips were seen. The ends of her sleeves met one another in the center directly over her chest. She stood there and paused. Her hooded robe was made of smooth black satin, and I could tell that the whole length of it was completely lined in that purple velvet.

I could just barely make out her face peaking out from the hood. It was so dark where she stood, that it was hard to make out much of her features. But I could tell she was definitely human and quite petite, almost dainty in her bone structure, and that she was very very feminine.

She then began to speak softly, her words at first sounding melodious and lilting.

“I am a celestial being” she tells me, “from the…” (blah blah blah,) – at this point I could not even understand what she was saying, it was as if the Lord Himself had stepped in and muffled that sound from me in order to protect me, but then I could just make out the words- “astral plane of higher consciousness…”

I felt her spell of words, sounding so beautiful to the ears, yet her breath reeked from the curses and death beneath it.

The woman would have continued on with her spell, but I would not stand for it any longer. So I stood there in the foyer, moved my feet apart so that they were firmly planted upon the ground, and then gave her my response.

“NO! You are not! You are a Satanist! Your power comes straight from the pit of hell!”

Upon hearing this, the robed feminine satanist melts and dissolves into nothingness.

Then the earth beneath my feet began to shake, and I knew then that it was a great earthquake.

Things fell from the walls, and plaster began to fall in large chunks from the ceiling. I knew they were trying to scare me off, but I stood my ground! I cast them out in the name of Jesus, and told them to go back to the pit from whence they came.

Great rolls and waves of hideous demons rushed at me, snapping, clawing, biting, attacking, but still I somehow stood my ground.

Then the earthquake stopped.

I said, “I will not leave! I have come to set the captives FREE!”

At the word ‘free’, I felt an answering earthquake coming from MY God. This quake was way more powerful than the previous one, and it affected the demons far more than it did me. I simply held on and continued to stand there unmoved, but the demons were being shaken from their foundations and their rafters and the walls from where they were covertly hanging, and once they were exposed, they were quickly sucked downwards, disappearing beneath the floor.

I continued speaking. “I am a much beloved daughter of the Most High! My Righteous King will send an ARMY of His angels to protect me! How then can ANY evil overtake me! I am sheltered under His wings! They shelter me! He rescues me from EVERY trap! His faithful promises are MY ARMOR!” I then added on in a whisper that seemed to oddly hit them even harder than any previous words I had yet spoken, “I will not fear YOU…”

I continued to cast out those that still remained. The demons tried to rush at me again to startle and scare me, this time in an effort to get me to forget the Word of God. But I was able to remember enough scripture well enough, to fight them off.

I then woke up, and then realized that I was still fighting them off in my bedroom!

But then I spoke something out loud that surprised me. And once it left my lips, I knew without a doubt in my heart that it was true. What its meaning was I did not yet know, but I knew it to be His truth. I sensed it was some kind of  weapon against them. So I said it again, this time almost shouting it back at them.

“I am a belaying pin for the Lord!”

I felt a rush of strength come into my body, allowing me to continue to fight them with unwavering tenacity.

I also realized with sudden clarity, why this attack had been made against me. Satanist wanted to stop me from posting on this blog. They wanted to make my purpose vain, to break my bonds with Christ, to cut off all hope from me, and to drive me to a place where their god satan could destroy me.

I straightened myself up to my full height, planted my feet apart once again upon my bedroom floor, and firmly continued to speak out loud.

“I WILL NOT STOP from posting on my blog! This attacking coven of witches will fall and not stand! I claim that whatever evil they send to us is returned to them ten fold! The Word of God will prevail, along with His servants. The captives will be set FREE!”

After I said this, I cast out the satanist(s) who had invaded my bedroom and my sleep, and cut their silver cords and lay lines.

Their shadows and presence all then dissolved into nothingness like smoke on a windy day.

Calling forth a host of angels to protect me and my family, I pleaded the blood of Jesus over us all.

I then felt the strong comforting breath of His army all around me. I lifted up a glass of water to the ceiling in a toast, and said “To The Lord God Of All! All praise be to Jesus Christ of Nazareth!” I exclaimed.

“YES!”, the angels replied all together in one mighty shout , lifting their arms up to heaven along with me.

I basked in the light of these angels, as they stood around me in my little room, smiling at me, encouraging me, and patting me on the back for hanging in there. They kept telling me that I was indeed a belaying pin for the Lord, and to never give up in the fight against the evil one.

It was several hours before their presence completely faded, but their hope and encouragement in me as that worthy belaying pin for our Lord lingered in my spirit for many days.

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I had heard of a belaying pin before, but I could not quite remember where. I thought it might be a pin of sorts to a grenade or something, but that made no sense to me. Then the Holy Spirit told me to go look it up. What I found made me smile.

For as long as I can remember, I have always struggled to be able to memorize things. From multiplication tables as a small child, to the memorization of life-giving scriptures, I struggled where to others it would come naturally. The bible refers to the Word as a sword one would use to fight off the evil one. I had so very often felt sub-par or unusable by my God because of this, as if I was somehow only half prepared to fight for Him on the battlefield.

When I looked up the definition of ‘belaying pin’, I found that it had been mostly used on the larger sailing ships, to help hold the sails in their place. However, when invaders tried to come aboard the ship, the sailors who had no sword next to them at that moment, would quickly remove a belaying pin from the wall and use it like a sword to fight off the enemy. A straight good-sized short stick with a handle made of either hardwood or brass, it was a blunt instrument without finesse, but it served both its purposes well.

Isn’t that sweet of Him? He can still find a use for me, even with my limitations.

I share this testimony with you, despite it being of a more personal nature, in the hopes that it too, will inspire you to still keep fighting the good fight, even though it may feel at times like you are not enough, or may even feel broken in some way. Our God is so VERY mighty, that He can use whatever we are for His glory, His people, His honor, and His kingdom!

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“Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life…”
(1 Timothy 6:12)

“The Lord is righteous; He has cut in two the cords of the wicked.” (Psalm 129:4)

“Let me not be put to shame, O Lord, for I call upon Thee; Let the wicked be put to shame, let them be silent in Sheol. Let the lying lips be dumb, Which speak arrogantly against the righteous with pride and contempt.” (Psalm 31:17-18)

“Behold, I have given you authority to tread upon serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall injure you.” (Luke 10:19)

“And the God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet.” (Romans 16:20)

“For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh: (For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;)” (2 Corinthians 10:3-4)

“The one who practices sin is of the devil; for the devil has sinned from the beginning. The Son of God appeared for this purpose, that He might destroy the works of the devil.” (1 John 3:8)

“You are from God, little children, and have overcome them; because greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world.” (1 John 4:4)

“…He which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ.” (Philippians 1:6)

“I will love thee, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.”
(Psalm 18:1-3)

“In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears. Then the earth shook and trembled; the foundations also of the hills moved and were shaken, because he was wroth. He bowed the heavens also, and came down: and darkness was under his feet.”
(Psalm 18:6-7, 9)

“As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the Lord is tried: he is a buckler to all those that trust in him. For who is God save the Lord? or who is a rock save our God?”
(Psalm 18:30-31)

“The Lord liveth; and blessed be my rock; and let the God of my salvation be exalted. He delivereth me from mine enemies: yea, thou liftest me up above those that rise up against me: thou hast delivered me from the violent man. Therefore will I give thanks unto thee, O Lord, among the heathen, and sing praises unto thy name.”
(psalm 18:46, 48-49)

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